Am I a Delay Fish?

When I get asked the question "What are you up to?" "What are you doing?" I think to myself. What am I really doing? Really what is being asked is what the heck are you doing with your life? At this moment I have no response to these questions....I am at a standstill in my life and I really wonder when things will pick up and move on for me. I would be what people would call a delay fish (Oh I love Dory) That is how I feel I am delaying myself and yet I do not get myself out of this place in my life. I have the power to get out and yet I stay. I think it is the artist in me, trying to hold on to the idea that my talent and gifts will be how I earn my way in life....but really and truly I am a starving artist....just in denial and holding onto hope that my art will pull through for me. I guess I could answer to the question "What are you up to?" with "I am very involved in my art and music and loving it!!" I am truly loving being involved in my art and music!! The rest of my life at the moment is a bit more tough to answer about. I answer with "Nothing" (Not very promising) I guess I can go from saying "Nothing" to saying "Art! That is what I am doing." Hopefully they won't probe into that more....something will happen I know....just at a standstill....hopefully won't be for very long.